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GOAL:
lose all the weight I plan to lose
take myself impulse shopping: NO REMORSE ON MONEY ;)

How else am I gonna get ready for summer?!?!

New me in the works!

Well, today marks my (hopefully) new lifestyle. Time to get back in the gym - for real this time. Not that I'm really given a deadline, but I'm giving myself one. I want to be healthier, soooo much healthier. My goal is to lose 40 lbs. No wait... I'm not really worried about losing pounds according to the scale, but was basing that on how I wanna look. (I guess? haha.) I would rather lose inches. I'm searching high and low for someone to prescribe me some Adipex. BUT CAN'T FIND A DAMN PERSON ANYWHERE!!!! Anyone know of ANYONE in the state of Mississippi to help me out? Sheesh. Eating healthy. Exercising. Adipex (hopefully) - my mom took it a while back and says it really does work, so it's not a scam I know that unless I have a horrible mother hahahah JOKING.. anyways. I'm off to the gym, first day gonna be kinda slow. But won't be slow for long. Wish me luck! :x

~ Stay Colorful ♥

Just blah lately..

I can't help but look at all of my pictures of my baby girl. I miss her so much. The 19th of this month makes it 3 months since she has been gone... it seems so much longer. But yet it doesn't. It feels like she was just here yesterday. Leaning over the tub licking the water as I washed my hair.. coming in my room to wake me up EVERY morning.. being the first one to greet me at the door before I even got out of my car... It's gotten a little better, just still have my moments.. the ones where all I want to do is lay curled up in my bed with nothing on, no sound, just looking at pictures of her.. she's here with me, I know it. And she is the most precious angel watching over me. I just miss her so much, it's hard to bear sometimes losing someone so close to you... :/ Time heals all wounds. Wish you were here angel.








ON ANOTHER NOTE...
school is going good. Have a feeling I'm not gonna like English as much as I thought I would, I might be wrong. REALLY like my World Civ teacher, he's funny as hell. And of course, can't forget Biology. BEST TEACHER EVER! -- this Monday, MLK JR Day, will be the first one I've had off in FOUR damn years!! Because I went to a school that didn't allow us to have it off... but everyone else did. So we were the only dumbass people in the whole area that went to school. While everyone else - could sleep in late. HAVE I MENTIONED I LOVE COLLEGE? It's glorious.

-Stay Colorful ♥

First Day Back

School actually wasn't that bad today :) The first day of classes, well more like the first week - is a love/hate situation for me, lol. You don't stay the whole time in the class because you're getting used to the teachers and whatnot, but all they do is TALK for the time you ARE in there.... I found myself tapping my foot and fingers incessantly. I think I should be okay with my classes this year. Granted, my Comp teacher seems old fashioned as hell. She is one of maybe 3 teachers at the whole college who go by the fine rule for cell phones.. if she catches it, it's $25 to get it back. I mean REALLY?? We are grown ass people. COLLEGE STUDENTS... so I might struggle with that class a little lol.

On a more negative note, I wish I lived somewhere ELSE. Somewhere that actually has their weather patterns on TRACK with their seasons. It is JANUARY here - you know, that little thing called WINTER TIME!!!! It has bee in the mid 60s/70s here lately... and dear god SO HUMID!!! Not to mention I have MOSQUITO bites EVERYWHERE!!!!! I am MISERABLE!! :/ I want some snow, dammit.

Blaaahhh I slept for the past 7 hours, so I can definitely say I CAUGHT UP with my sleep... just don't have it in the right pattern, lol. Let's see what kinda stuff I can make tonight ;)



~ Stay Colorful <3

Time for school!

So it's 01.09
5 am.

I haven't slept all night, tried my hardest - and I failed.
so I've been downloading music all night.
tried to play xbox.
got bored with that too easily (SHOCKER)
....so I went downstairs -
AND MADE THE MOST AMAZING FRIED PICKLES EVAAARRRRR.

I felt accomplished! ... but now I feel like a fatty.
Getting into the gym again this week.

4+ months til D-Day ;)
gettin my grooooooooooove on to some Tech N9ne


song of the day: T-Pain & Neyo__Turn All The Lights On
perfect techno + bass mix for workouts! ENJOY ;)

It's a new year!

Goodness gracious, there has been so much to happen to me in the past two months.
-my laptop crashed. I lost literally everything on it and am having to start completely new... coding everything, new graphics programs, EVERYTHING :(
-my zune stopped working. lost ALL my music (3000+ songs)
-christmas was crazy

and blah blah blah.. SO - needless to say I have definitely not been in my right mind this past month or so. Sanity? What is that you speak of?? HAHAHA! Well now I'm BACK... with a new desktop ;) and she's so fancy :O

-new layout
-new buttons (still fixing)
-adding some more pages as I go..

school starts back Monday! I'm actually excited.. now that I have the hang of it ;) come mid-April I will officially be a college SOPHOMORE!!!! And I move some time in July to Hattiesburg ;) new city.. new start... sooooo exciting. I'm pretty hopeful for this year. It started out okay I suppose.

I get to see my Jakey this summer too!! Not to mention I'm getting back in the gym... so they kinda go hand in hand ;) cant have him seeing me all ugly and that jazz... bahahahaha anyways. Happy New Year! Don't forget to smile today! :)

love this time of year!

perfect weather, perfect moods (most of the time, haha!)
and we're putting up christmas decorations soon :D
BUT! the BEST PART.........................

a week from today I will finally be the big 1-8!
lmao everyone on my facebook that I do and even don't know are like
"omg you're not 18??!??!? i thought you were like 22!"

makes my day >:)
:off to make some graphcis:


happy holidays <3